Finally :’)
Setelah gue ngelewatin kegalauan gue beberapa bulan ini. Setelah gue berusaha ambil keputusan yang mebuat diri gue terlihat jahat di mata orang lain. Setelah gue berpikir merasakan, berpikir, merasakan dan merasakan. Yah, untuk masalah ini memang butuh lebih banyak merasakan, apa apa aja yang mebuat gue ngerasa sakit, sedih, seneng, nyaman, semuanya. Akhirnya gue menemukan titik terang.
Sampai sekarang pun gue belum cukup ngerti. Apa yang gue lakukan ini nyakitin orang lain. Tapi gue ngga bisa boong sama diri sendiri. Kalo gue sayang sama lo.. Gue nggak mau lo hilang dari hidup gue. :(
Gue berusaha menyelesaikan semuanya. Sampai akhirnya diujung batas kesabaran lo. Gue berhasil memutuskan jalan hidup gue buat milih lo jadi pendamping hari-hari gue :’)
“Jangan jauh-jauh dari gue lagi yaa”
Gue berusaha untuk terus berada disamping lo mulai sekarang dan seterusnya :)
Thanks buat semua, sayang lo ke gue, niat lo buat ngejaga gue, buat nyenengin gue.
“Love you :) “
(I love you too…, please don’t go again)
Thanks God, You send me a guardian angel to protect me, and love me.
When I say “I love you,” it’s not because I want you or because I can’t have you.
In fact, it has nothing to do with me. I love what you are, and what you do and how you try.
I’ve seen your kindness and your strength that carries you through. I’ve seen the best of you. I’ve seen the worst of you. And I understand with perfect clarity exactly what you are.
Sakit..
Setiap gue mikirin ini semua, rasanya hati gue dan badan gue terasa sakit. Gue nggak mau ambil keputusan secepat ini.. Apa gue harus ngelepas lo? Apa itu mudah bagi gue? Apa hati gue ngerasa sakit nantinya?
HURT
Gue udah tau semua dari dia. Gue gak tau musti ngomong apa. Gue sedih banget.. :(
Only Reminds Me Of You
I see you beside me
It’s only a dream
A vision of what used to be
The laughter, the sorrow
Pictures and time
Fading to memories
How could I ever let you go?
Is it too late to let you know?
I tried to run from your side
But each place I hide
It only reminds me of you
When I turn out of the light
Even the night
It only reminds me of you
I needed my freedom
This what I thought
But I was a fool to believe
My heart lied while you cried
Rivers of tears
But I was too blind to see
Everything we’ve been through before
Now it means so much more
I tried to run from your side
But each place I hide
It only reminds me of you
When I turn out of the light
Even the night
It only reminds me of you
Only you
So come back to me
I’m down on my knees
Boy, can’t you see?
How could I ever let you go?
Is it too late to let you know?
I tried to run from your side
But each place I hide
It only reminds me of you
When I turn out all the light
Even the night
It only reminds me of you, you
Only reminds me of you
Kenapa :”(
Kenapa lo delete pin gue.. lo delete nomor gue.. kenapa? gue salah apa sama lo? setiap lo butuh gue, gue berusaha untuk selalu ada buat lo kok. kapan pun lo mau ngubungin gue sesuka lo. tapi kenapa lo pengen coba ngilang gitu aja.. berasa sakit loh. yaa walopun gue ngga pantes untuk kayak gini, tapi… apa perasaan begitu gampang buat dibohongin? susah. and i don’t know how long and how to face this..
